Saturday, September 30, 2006 11:33 PM okays ; just to infrom you guys. everything is fine and okay now(: thanks people! :D but i will still online lesser, depending. i will mostly off my hp when i am revising. i will call back after that alrights =] just have to endure for 2 more weeks, yeahyeah ! going out to study with WENN tomorrow(: once again, good luck people ! sometimes i can't resist myself from blogging. LOL! nights people ~ ! with loves*
WENN, though life sucks for you now. bear with it okays, everything will be fine after that. lets endure together and go happy after exmas(: i am looking forward to those happy times! smile okays,muacks!
YANHONGgina, cheer up okays! take lots of care. anything ring me up, i am here for you(: iloveyou~
easily and sweetly contented(: iloveyou stupid-er gonggong! i just thank you for everything. you change my life to a beautiful one :D muah muah !
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006 5:12 PM it's been some time since i last blog. this will be probably be the last post for now. will update when EOY is over(: EOY starts this friday and ends on the 13th of oct. 13th the friday, ewwww =\ whatever it is, get it over and i am FREEEEEEE, woots! at least a break from studies? LOL! bless me & give me good results :D all the best people ! =] STUDY STUDY STUDY ; EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS ; BANGBANGBANG !
okays, i lost control of myself earlier on just now and my tears just drop. i made this decision but perhaps me, myself could not take it. i am weird . out of mind , whatever you call that. i didn't expect you to walk away.. i am not going to write in details. i am just confuse of myself. what i wish to do now is just get on with it, survive for another 1month plus. after that, everything will be just fine, i hope so? =\
thanks for all the concern peeps(:
WENN ; let me be foolish and get on with it. and let's chiong and get good grades :D loves*
WEIJIkorkor,REDUZANbigbaby,KUNSHENGahgong,PEIJIEmei & etc ; thanks for just now, i am fine, you people are great !cheers *
MIA MIA MIA contact me in school okays, my handphone will be off most of the times. will online lesser too =] sorries for inconvience, i want to be alone.. take care people! will be back once exams end. =D
cross my heart, stab it bled.
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006 10:14 PM IT'S GOING TO BE VERY LONG =\
gees ; been busy busy nowadys =so many stuffs happening; i am getting more & more sensitive. small little things could afftect me greatly. i had too much, enough of everything.. being stress up by people around. the feeling is horrible; isn't great at all. i just wish to put a BIG fullstop to it & end everything. all these crap and horrible mess. i am going to be more selfish. ignore those people that are causing me hurt. treating people the way the treated me. you treat me good; i am more than happy to treat you back the same way. you treat me bad; don't blame me for being nasty, DON'T PISS ME OFF! i am going nuts ; going crazy.
people pushing me to my limits. i miss my happy old times. those were the days without any worries and hurt. just full of laughters and smiles. give me back my happiness. i need no pity; i need no care. leave me alone and i am greatly thankful. which girl does not want to be pampreded, cared & loved? i am just one of them. i want to be cared and not wanting attention; i aren't one attention seeker . just put it this way, if you are anyone out that that dislikes me, let it be. though i hate the feeling of being hated. but what can i do? no one can please every single one.its just that impossible. human are all the same. no one is perfect.
who are your real friends that will stay by you and not turning their backs to you? whose words can you trust? who can you tell your sorrows to? who will always be ther for you? who can gurantee that there will not be any conflicts between the two of you so that your secret won't be leak out one day? once you step out of your house, walking out to the outside world. everything seems so dangerous.. i really sometimes wonder who can i really belive and trust. nothings stay the same. who knows what will happen many years down the road. i might be hating the one i have been on good terms with at the next moment. human are selfish, usually all the care is themselves. everyone has their problems. they just wish to find someone and say out everything that has been kept inside their hearts, hoping that someone will cheer them up and help them. it isn't wrong but at least care the people around you. you aren't the only one whom got problems, spare a thoght for others.
life may be sucky to us at times but well, its life. we still must live with it, bearing with everything. just like me, my life sucks for this period of time. i am stress out, i am tired and sick of stuffs aound. who want to feel this way? who in their right mind will? people are getting emo. more and more people are labelled as being emo. it simply meant that more people are feeling down, their life sucks. it isn't funny to be labelled as emo. you don't even know what they are going through. see how people around can be that seflish? get wad i mean? alrights, i ma be one of the emo and so? whats the big fuss about. seeing others suffer make you happy? you are sick, consult a doctor. i am just full of things to say.. it shows how much i have bear and move on with it. the sorrows and pain, numb in the heart. stop pushing me please..
though there are so many sick people around. i still wanna thanks those who are by my side =] more than words to say. i owe you all a BIG thankyou. though i still felt miserable deep inside.i still have to accept this. all these are just part of growing up. its life. i have no idea when will i be happy again which i am hoping every single day. felt pointless and meaningless sometimes. alrights, i just need to move on, i have to. there are too many things in my life that break me down. i guess i aren't the only one , yeahs? i just hope everything gets better and not getting worst as time pass by.
EOY is nearing, i got to study and more study. who will want bad results? i know i don't=] till the next time when i am free, i will update again. all the best people ! i am looking forward to the holidays =i am looking forward to my birthday.LOL i am looking forward to receive my good results >< hope so? i am looking forward to the wonderful future! and alot more =D
last but not least; i love you baby. you meant more than anything. thank you for being here(: you make my life brighten than before. if isn't for you, my life will be still the same 3 years ago.ha! you are my future, my smile, my beautiful rainbow. muah muah ! the words go on...
I AM FINALLY DONE =X TAKE CARE PEOPLE !
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Saturday, September 09, 2006 11:59 PM suppose to go out with WENN but she sick =went out with 2 of my GIRLFRIENDS instead(: MICHbaobei & YANgina came and fetch me, lovelove! went centurysqaure; walk around and took neoprints. met WENN awhile, down to bugis to buy bags :D hangbags for school, hers white ; mine pinkish. went back after that. waited for DEAR at bedok mrt platform. MICHbaobei came and find us when i was buying my whiteshoes at bata. had longjohns for dinner =x yummyyummy* fastfood fever, later sick then see what to do . LOL went home after that & DEAR slack till 10plus and went off. just love spending time & talking happily with DEAR. our crap and laughters, thanks BABY. i hate it when the both of us are feeling shrugs ='(
WENN ; xie xie ni for always being there(: especially just now, thanks MAMA :D yeahs, i have to accept those changes i guess. no other choices x( yesyes, we have each other, always will be! don't ever leave me alone hor! x) once sistars, always sistars. 2years5months+ & counting on ! & what you mean by i used to be so sweet, i always is =x went to read my past posts too & i really did change alot. HA!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JIAHUI :D
time now is 12.25am
you make me smile WIDE =D
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Thursday, September 07, 2006 7:39 PM life is like a pile of shit; MEIYAN is right saying this.. people around me are changing into something that no word can describle. how horrible have they change. life as a teenager can be such a pain. my heart Ms>torn and hurts whenever people around are like this. how selfish can they be. only thinking about themselves. being the good person every single time can really kills myself. they take me for granted once, twice. it's never-ending. thats human nature, take things for granted.. it's tiring. it's them whom make me hate, make me tired. just can't everyone get the fuck out of my sight? get out of my life ! can't you people just wake up and look at how you all have changed? i have so much to say . so many things kept inside unsaid. it's irriating, it's frustating, it's fucking hell. i have a nasty temper, yes. but i have give in so much to friends around me. they are just driving me crazy. they are always snatching away my smiles, forcing me with tears. but well, i have no reason to hate them. hating is tiring and i am tired enough.. ask me no question, i am fine, will be(: i just need a break some space to vent my anger and heres the place. unhappy, please leave, thanks~
bring back my smiles please.
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2:14 PM comp reformatted =now all my stuffs are GONE; boooo x( been down with flu for the 4th day. thanks to those tempting yuumy food. HA i am so boredddddd . left pathetic few days to school reopen & i have done only a few hw =feeling so tired cause of the medicine, slpslpslp. been blogging lesser, lazy =x
i can't survive without the existence of you(:
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006 6:58 PM didn't online for the past few days. my comp is infected with too many virus =didn't clear them at all =x can't remember what happen for the past few days as usual..
o1o9o6 HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY/ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIMI & WENYING(:
o2o9o6 HAPPY ONE YEAR DARLINGS; YANHONG(GINA) & GER(BABY) =] HAPPY ONE YEAR BAOBEIS; MICH & JOAN =]
Saturday, September 30, 2006
J0ANlimweishan(: 